Is this how most of the happy endings work, or happy beginnings – in matters of love? When our loved one’s actions align with our perceptions only then can we find happiness in them? Then what can you do when you can no longer make your loved ones happy ?
You are not happy because of me. You are happy because you got what you want from me.
When I loved you I wanted to bring you all the happiness this world could bring. And I learned on the way, that most of the things I could bring would never make you happy unless those things are what you perceive as something love should only bring.
As a child I learned to bring happiness to you with marks, titles and a list of victories so that you could take pride in me in public. Only then I, as a love, could make you happy.
As a family when my success brings you happiness, I don’t think you are happy for me. More than that, you are happy because I brought success to your home. And now you can look at other homes and call your one greater. You love that feeling.
As a lover you were happy when I did only what you thought one should do in love, and said what you thought one should say in love. Instead of being me, I acted only the way you wanted me to act. I made you were very happy very easily. I could make you this happy even without love, by just playing with your perception. Only if I loved your perceptions more, instead of you, I could make you the happiest – in love.
As a friend you were happy having me because you thought I agreed with your perceptions and that made you love me more.
As a stranger you loved me when I said something you thought I should say, or I looked the way you want me to look like, or I acted the way you want me to act like. Isn’t that how we fall in love with strangers when they seem to align with our perceptions, even if momentarily?
In middle of all these, do we ever love? I think we do. But our love is overshadowed by our perceptions. Instead of loving, we are rather busy perceiving love in our narrowed down corner of individual poor perceiving skills.